I'm a flower that blooms in September and died in December
who's secretly planted in a forbidden garden
who's nurtured with hatred, doubt &betrayal,
breath from the atmosphere of lies,
who's living from the hands of a half-hearted gardener,
and grow through the hard weather of agony & desperation.
But based on the solid ground of love & the knowing that the sunshine of hope lies right above her...
she gets all the strenght she needs.
She'll make it through, I'll make it through
She'll live, I'll live

... Each day I love you more, today more than yesterday and less than tomorrow -Rosemonde Gerard ( L'eternelle Chanson)

I cant believe that he ask me out today! so excited, so flattered. I always wanna be by his side as long as i'm able to. Is it ridiculous to be so submitted to someone? I hope i'll be his only loving companion. We talk about deep things today. About my unsecure self, the "Great Wall of China", and now my heart aches in pain by his anwers & statements. But what it'll be like, to be unattach with him? then i'll lose my outer world. He keeps on holding 2 the difference. For me that's not the essential issue any longer. Maybe the fact is he just simply cant break her.. Maybe he just never really love me wholly, but then again... why am i still here hoping that my miracle will come? Sigh... coz God gives me His faith .. to trust Him, that He never fails. Love never fails.